While I recently commented on being shocked that senior year was halfway over, I find myself thinking how long this semester feels. Last semester, I had my first, and only study hall. Now, here it is, 2nd semester of senior year with a full load. What was I thinking? Blah. I just wish I didn't have to deal with grad standards and I could be taking slacker classes or just not be taking classes at all...

Life these days feels like a rollercoaster. Unfortunatly, there are highs, and then just as quickly, there are lows. I don't like change, and it's really hard for me to accept change. I suppose that is why I hold on to things much longer then necessary. I suppose that's why I make a big deal out of nothing...

I really enjoyed my evening out with my girlfriends last Thursday. I had a lot of fun being with Brynn, Mac, Marie, and Alison and it's very refreshing to hear about sophomore life... it feels so long ago. Brynn-- anytime you need/want to talk your southern pal (y'all..) will always be here to listen. Plus, I ate so much... good times.

If I don't get a chance to blog for a while, come and support the cast of "The Marriage of Bette and Boo" in competition at Benild this Saturday at 11:30 (I believe)

"To forget all we believe and know may be impossible. But we can, at least for a miraculous moment, put all explanations aside and look with innocent eyes." --Piero Ferrucci

My finals are over. In less then 24 hours, I will be half done with senior year. 14/16 of my high school career--over. Hello?! I know we all keep reflecting, and talking about how fast everything is going, but I'm blown away by how true this quote is: "Life is like a role of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes." Sure, we're only 18 (some still 17), and we have a ton of our lives left, but it feels like it is going by so fast. My memory of Day One, freshmen year, is so vivid. While I'm really ready to be done with high school and all the drama, I'm not ready to say goodbye. Everyone: while I think at one time or another, we all want to get far, far away from SLP, lets live it up while we still have this opportunity. Let's create some great memories that will last forever.

My horoscope for today:
There may be some stress between the need to connect and the need to be separate. A sense of detachment overtakes your emotional life now as you move into a new phase of reclaiming your independence. Even if you are in an intimate relationship, the practical considerations of your life become temporarily more important than the feelings you are having. Although this is out of character for you Scorpios, try not to be overly concerned with your temporary lack of feelings.

Good luck to everyone on their 2nd day of finals.

Congratulation to everyone involved in the One Acts. They were great and I really enjoyed them. If you were unable to attend, come support the cast of "The Marriage of Bette and Boo" in competition this sat at ossio hs or the following sat at benild (wow, I really don't know how to spell it...).

Finals... blah. What a stupid idea... let's seem how fast you can re-learn a semester's worth of info... how stupid.

To sleep. To sleep perchance to dream.

Mara, I went to that website, and I really liked it. Everyone: go there if you need a few minutes to wind down from your stress.

http://www.positivepause.com/

"I've made myself vulnerable,
I've let myself care,
I've opened my firmly closed heart.
My safety is gone,
It's no longer there
My protection is falling apart.

Nobody promised
Our hearts would be safe,
Or our bodies protected from harm.
A moment can change
All we think that we've got.
Hope will endure through the storm" --From a book I read in 6th grade.

Everyone: come see the One Acts this weekend! PLEASE!

BLAH ON HW...

I am so busy. I really like it, but I have no time to think. When I get some time, I have some things I'm going to put on here. In the meantime... IDK... my brain isn't working. I'm going to go do... something...

1) I'm so glad that Ms. Herbert didn't plan anything for this week. It's so nice pretending to watch a movie that I don't have to remember for any reason.
2) It's 9 o'clock and I want to go to bed. I'm bored. Bed sounds good. But then it'll be tomorrow. What a predicament.
3)I'm tired of winter and the cold and it being dark. But, like everyone has reminded me, by the time it is summer and it isn't so dark anymore, high school will be over, and I'll be hitting myself for wishing it away so fast. Yet another predicament.
I don't seem to have much to say. ~Lilah Tov.~

A message to all: Don't stop writing. Because of one thing or another, a lot of people aren't blogging because they think that people aren't going to want to hear/read it. Well, I think that as much as this is for other people to read on the boring nights, it's for you to write down your own thoughts. Sure, you don't want to offend anyone, but seriously, I think your blog should be a place where you can write down what's going on in your head so you can think about things more rationally.

My New Years was so much better then I thought it was going to be. You probably won't find this very often, but I have spent every New Year with my family and family friends. Except for slight changes over the years, the people and place(s) have remained they same. One thing that I really like about that is while everyone is calling to find out what they are going to do (New Year's is really overrated), I have my plans all figured out, and I know I'm going to have fun. Sure, there have been times when I felt bad for not being able to go to a get together that someone had had, but overall, I love my New Year's tradition. This year, however, one of the families in our group when out of town. Because of this and that, everyone decided to do their own thing this year. It was one of the weirdest feelings-- to not be with all those people. Enough babbling... Marie and Alison came over and we had some good times listening to the Beach Boys and being girlfriends. New Year's really turned out better then expected.

It's 2004. '04. WHAT? '04 always felt like SO far away, and yet- here it is. No matter what I tell myself, or how much denial I want to inflict, the big year is here. Woah. Life just keeps moving so fast. AHH.

Reminiscing of elementary life--