loss (noun)- the state of being deprived of or of being without something that one has had
"Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road. Time grabs you by the wrists directs you where to go. So make the best of this task and don't ask why. It's not a question but a lesson learned in time. It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life." - Green Day
Regardless of how truly fitting these words are, the message of my using this song truly symbolizes how things come full circle.
As we grow up, we find that many, many people cross our paths. All of them, even in an insignificant way, help shape and mold us to the people we become. It’s a random stranger opening a door for us, the grumpy sales person on your shopping day, but especially, the people that we give some of our heart and our lives to. These people in particular, are the ones that we won’t forget. The part about this that no one really tells you is the fact that many of these people won’t remain in your lives forever no matter how much you think they will at the time. And the truly toughest part is letting go of them.
Some may say, why must you let go? If you’re willing to make it work then why not? But tell me, when then risks start outweighing the rewards; when the person stops being more then a passing thought; when you just don’t have it in you to fight; then is it time? There is no definite answer for this. But letting go happens- every day to so many people. Things just end. People grow apart. They have different interests from when they first met. They have a different path. Their circle and your circle just don’t mesh. And your lives, which once felt like they overlapped like a Venn diagram, are now moving further and further apart.
It’s just, what if one thing, that started off little and grew into a big thing, what if that one thing was the issue that was pushing two people apart? How do you get around that thing? Or do you let it be the catalyst that breaks everything apart?
I miss it, our friendship, and what we used to have. I am frustrated that our lives don’t overlap like the used to and the fantasy of being like your mom and her best friend seem to be slipping away. But what I most dislike about this whole situation is how this issue is first and foremost about a guy, and issues stem off from that. You’ll never truly understand the stress it has caused me. And while I mean every bit that I only want you to be happy, I also think you are making a huge mistake. While I don't know the current status of things because time has become yet another obstacle, I really think it all stems off that you are just afraid to be alone. With that said, there is nothing I can do. If things seem to continue on this path with him, and you two get married, I hope I am there, regardless if I am up there next to you or in the audience. But I will always carry the past with me and while I may be able to forgive, I will never forget.
In closing, I truly do believe that whatever happens now and in the future that we had something great, and you’ll always be a lasting memory.
“I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a hand print on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend..."
