I'm so stressed out right now that I don't know what to do with myself. I've never felt this way. I want to cry and I have no idea why. I'm supposed to be having a good time. If I look at my life from an outside perspective, I know I have a good life. I am very fortunate that my parents are still married and that they both love me very much. I live in a nice neighborhood and go to a good school. I have my own car, and spending money. I have a cell phone and I have friends. But there feels like there is something missing. Idk... I can't put it in to words. I just wish someone would come up to me and explain life so that I could live it better. Or just come up and give me a hug.

1st weekend of the play is over and I have bittersweet feelings. I feel that it came together so well and despite that it is really long, I think it is a quality play. But at the same time, I really need a break from these people. I have suffered way too much drama. That's what I like about having 2 weekends of performances. Not only does all your hard work get shown off 6 times, but you get to ultimately celebrate with all these people all the hard work you've put in. (And Ian and Art: You too... grrrr...)... and: It's an intersting feeling when you are the 1st person out in "I've never". I kinda liked it.

If anyone reads this out in internet land: I need a hug. Thanks in advance.