My first trip to the big city proved to be more then just a trip-- and some of the things still affect me today. Just some background info: Last April, choir went on a trip to NY. It was so cool being there for the 1st time. We saw the Producers,and idk, its was fun. And even though things got shitty later, I got to be friends with Tim, which was an experience-- and we'll leave it at that. I also got to know Mandy, who ended up sleeping in our room. Aly had known her from Lax, but I was fairly unfamiliar with this crazy gal. She was so much fun. Well, lo and behold, we became pretty good friends this year. It meant so much to me that on Halloween day, I have told her that I didn't have any plans. She told me that she would call me and see if I wanted to join her. She looked up my # in the phone book and called. A lot of people said that they would call, but they didn't. She did. Just the act of her calling meant a lot. She even called me back later in the night (after she had gone trick-or-treating) to see if I wanted to hang out. The act of her calling really meant a lot. So basically, I just wanted to talk about my friend, Amanda. She's one cool gal. Oh and Mandy: Thanks? for the present ahead of time. Stealing is not good, though ;-).

On a different note, I was going through some of my old stuff that I have saved and I found this poem written by Garrett L. I thought it was pretty appropriate for a lot of people's current state of mind.

"As the days quickly end,
Soon after they begin.
I try to find the answers,
To the questions from within.
So now I stop to think,
To slow the daily race.
And find that at the speed in running,
I'll never keep the pace.
I think about my life,
And see all my mistakes.
But now is not the time to slow,
There's no time left to take.
And as the days pass,
I'm clinging to the past.
And I realize that inside my youth,
I grew up much too fast.
When what once was distant future,
Turns into what has been.
The days still quickly end,
Soon after they begin."

My present feeling right now is: ????????? (confusion)

All to all-- goodnight