"Don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you've got 'till it's gone?"

I've had an encounter with the past and I'm totally unsure what to think. I'm told to stay strong, and "just say no", but sometimes my insides get happy when I'm think about the turn of events. Who knows what tomorrow will bring, because, honestly, when you least expect something, it might just happen.

1st day of classes went as well as can be expected. Campus gets smaller each day I venture out in to it... which is comforting. Tomorrow is my fullest day of the week- I hope I don't pass out from all the walking mixed with using my brain. OY

I got an e-mail from Mac's mom today, which I thought was so cute! It made me feel all the more closer to home. Oddly, though, I'm not homesick like I thought I would be. Yes, I do talk to my parents everyday, but in some aspect, that's more for them then for me. My mom explained it that it's so much different for them, and people at home, like Jen, where everything has remained the same except we're not there. Whereas for us, we have this whole new life and we're kept reality busy with this and that.

Last night I didn't sleep too well, most likely because I was nervous for classes, but now I'm super tired. Why am I not sleeping- you may ask. Because my brain is on overload and once I would/will lay my head down, it will continue spinning for a while. Plus, I actually did some homework already. I'm really going to try to acquire some good study habits!

I have an icky taste in my mouth- off to get ready for slumbering. I'll see you in my dreams.

Well, here it is, Sunday night, and I start classes tomorrow. I'm feeling quite anxious about it; although I calmed myself by walking around with Carly and Mara to try to find some of the buildings. I'm not sure what to expect. Some of the buildings remind me of a high school, which is kind of comforting. At least for now. I've gotten to be better friends with David Sattler, who I used to not be so fond of, but he's cool now. I miss my friends. I hate how we're all so far away and going through the same thing, yet totally different things. I'm afraid we'll all grow apart and it'll be awkward when we come home. I just wanna go to applebee's and eat two-for-one appetizers and gossip... Oh well. I had forgotten my pictures at home, and my aunt mailed them to me, so I'm finally making my desk and room feel more like home. My roommate, Aakriti, is from India and while we're very different we do get along. Sometimes I wish I had a roommate who was more like me, but this is a very unique experience. I need to go and get my backpack ready for tomorrow and stuff. Plus, the VMAs are on... E-mail me cuz I love hearing from people: Meuus9@yahoo.com

1st night in my dorm... ahhh

i'll blog later and fill everyone in on everything.

Life feels very odd when a lot of my friends aren't here...

Happy Birthday, Al! 19!

Mac, thanks for your words of wisdom, but I'm scared now. I don't want to be sad. I'm not good with goodbye, or change for that matter. I just want everything to go over smoothly. Especially with my roommate whose from the United Arab Emerits (sp). Interesting...?!

I'm saying goodbye to the people I really wanted to, which makes me happy. I'm even going to lunch tomorrow with my cousin, Sam. And the cute thing is, he initiated it!

~Everything works out in the end. If things aren't working out, it's not the end.~

Last night I went to Mac's house for a goodbye party and it was really nice to see the people that came. I talked to Ian who I honestly haven't talked to in a long long time... And brynn-a-lynn, what a cutie! It was funny, though, because the drama from high school that I figured would end once high school ended didn't really end... and I watched it unfold last night. Oh times.

I am really upset with myself because I didn't get a chance to say goodbye to Alison. I had planned on dropping off her b-day present and saying goodbye at the same time, but time got away from me and she was in slumberland when I got to her house. I'll sure be happy come Thanksgiving when I can see everyone again-- oy that's in a long time.

I'm listening to the new Hanson CD, good times!

I'm feeling really frantic right now. I feel like there are so many things I need to accomplish before Tuesday. There are so many people I want to spend time with before we all to the unknown. I know that I need to let the little things go like doing an extensive clean of my room- I just don't' think it's going to happen. But that's just one of the things that if I had more time, I would like to accomplish. I'm just going to have to accept that I can't do everything (or everyone haha) that I want to before I leave.

I talked to Mac tonight and it was the WIERDEST feeling- talking to one of my good friends who's at COLLEGE! WHAT?! I am not old enough for this. I'm not mature enough for this. Good gracious.

I'm off to Jen's cabin tomorrow, I hope Mr. Sun shines down on me!

I really dislike hockey families. Especially ones from Manitoba, Canada. They think they can just walk all over you. And the noise.. I can barely hear myself think! I want to eat, cuz all around me these people are eating and drinking (pop that is) and I'm so bored that eating sounds like a wonderful pastime!

At update for those who I don't talk to very much: Ariella from LA was to be my new roommate at IU. Then, just a few days ago, she decided that Indiana is just too far away from home and she's afraid she'll get homesick. She did kinda wait till the last min to figure this out. And yes, Alison, I'm happy for in the respect that she did figure this out now instead of being miserable at school... I just got my hopes up for her being my roommate cuz we seemed like we would've gotten along really well. Maybe in another life. I just hope my new roommate (which I have no idea when I'll find out who she is) and I can get along.

Kansas kids left today: I wish them good luck.
Iowa kids leave in T minus 7 days
Indiana kids leave in T minus 11 days.

Au revoir...

"They say if you love someone
You should set them free
And if they love you in return
They will return to thee"

Time is ticking
I've never been good with goodbye
I don't usually like change
I want to be 10 again

I want my dreams to come true
I want happily ever after
And I don't want to say goodbye

Oh so tired...

I've been sleeping in for the past few days and am realizing that I am more tired then when I get up at 10:30 or earlier. Go figure.

We got a new pretzel oven at work today! It's so clean! It probably wont stay that way for long, but it sure does look nice.

There is a hockey boy from BSM here (yes, I'm at work) who I honestly thought was a girl cuz his hair is so long. I'm not a fan.

This weekend I'm off to Canada. I'll let you know how it goes.

Time is ticking away very fast. In less then three weeks, I will be leaving, or going on vacation to some... I can't believe I'm going off to college. But, my roommate seems cool. Her name is Ariella and she is from LA.

And I'm off to shut off my brain...