blah/grr: my horoscope
"You are pushing hard now, but the structures that you’ve created are not going to give in to your desires. You may not get things to go your way. Even so, you’re still inclined to fight for what you believe. Unfortunately, fighting is not a viable option as it will only bring you unhappiness and stress. The good news is that you are connected to a higher purpose now, so you’ll be able to see the beauty that others may be missing."
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
Over this past week, I saw the movie The Green Mile. Honestly, it was such a good movie. I cried at the end like I've never cried before at a movie. I highly recommend seeing it if you haven't already. I also saw Mona Lisa Smile. It was a quality movie, as well.
So yesterday was Jen's birthday. I was invited out to dinner with her and the fam as her "date". It was really good. Then, she tells me no curfew! We called up her pals Melissa and Krystal and ventured over to Sex World. Woowee. Fun times. It's a really entertaining store. Then, we were off to the casino. I think I lost $4. Big spender, I know. After a cup of free casino coffee, I got a second wind. We left around 2:30 or so, and ventured off to Perkins. Was I hungry? No, but I ate anyways. Why not? Then we drove around for a while and got back to Jen's about 4:15. It was a fun night.
It feels like everyone is falling apart at the seams. I hope that a break from hell (school) and a break from people will give them a breath of fresh air and realize what their missing-- or give them the stregnth (?) to put themselves back together.
My tan is already fading... I want to cry. I think I'm going to go throw things away. Yeah.
So yesterday was Jen's birthday. I was invited out to dinner with her and the fam as her "date". It was really good. Then, she tells me no curfew! We called up her pals Melissa and Krystal and ventured over to Sex World. Woowee. Fun times. It's a really entertaining store. Then, we were off to the casino. I think I lost $4. Big spender, I know. After a cup of free casino coffee, I got a second wind. We left around 2:30 or so, and ventured off to Perkins. Was I hungry? No, but I ate anyways. Why not? Then we drove around for a while and got back to Jen's about 4:15. It was a fun night.
It feels like everyone is falling apart at the seams. I hope that a break from hell (school) and a break from people will give them a breath of fresh air and realize what their missing-- or give them the stregnth (?) to put themselves back together.
My tan is already fading... I want to cry. I think I'm going to go throw things away. Yeah.
Saturday, December 20, 2003
Before I leave for CA, I just wanted to wish everyone a very Happy Chanukah, and a Merry Christmas, and a Happy Kwanza (sp)! Enjoy your holidays!
I found out that my phone will work while I'm away, so if anyone of you get bored, feel free to call me... and save me from the 'rents.
In a good mood-
Libby
I found out that my phone will work while I'm away, so if anyone of you get bored, feel free to call me... and save me from the 'rents.
In a good mood-
Libby
Friday, December 19, 2003
I'm with Marion
I'm sitting in 2nd hour, passing the time away. I should be doing one thing or anyother, but I'm not. It's a little over 5 hours until winter break finally begins. WooHoo!
Happy Birthday to Brynn! Brynn, my dear: I hope you had a great birthday and got lots of sweatshirts.
I haven't had any time to write latly, but I'm going to take this time to write about Brynn. When I first met her, she was this really shy gal-- cute as a button-- but very shy. Inicialy, i was jealous because Aly and Mac knew her and I didn't really... but sometimes I would still say hi to her when I saw her. Then came SLP theater, and that's where things really started to blossom. As you might have read in Brynn's blog, during "Gentlemen", we had to go try on costumes... and I saw this yellow dress that had a cheeta/leopard print on it. I imidiatly got excited! I soon found out that no one else wanted to where the beauty of a dress, and I got to wear it. And who had made it? None other then good ol' Brynn! She was so proud of it, and I was proud of her-- hell, I don't think I could've made it. But after that, me and her talked more, and the with "Pirates" she was on crew again and I got to hang out with her even more. Now the roles are reversed and she's in the one acts, and I'm on crew... but we still get to hang out and I am so glad that I get to see those heartfelt smiles that Brynn gives out!
Class is almost over... Blah
Happy Birthday to Brynn! Brynn, my dear: I hope you had a great birthday and got lots of sweatshirts.
I haven't had any time to write latly, but I'm going to take this time to write about Brynn. When I first met her, she was this really shy gal-- cute as a button-- but very shy. Inicialy, i was jealous because Aly and Mac knew her and I didn't really... but sometimes I would still say hi to her when I saw her. Then came SLP theater, and that's where things really started to blossom. As you might have read in Brynn's blog, during "Gentlemen", we had to go try on costumes... and I saw this yellow dress that had a cheeta/leopard print on it. I imidiatly got excited! I soon found out that no one else wanted to where the beauty of a dress, and I got to wear it. And who had made it? None other then good ol' Brynn! She was so proud of it, and I was proud of her-- hell, I don't think I could've made it. But after that, me and her talked more, and the with "Pirates" she was on crew again and I got to hang out with her even more. Now the roles are reversed and she's in the one acts, and I'm on crew... but we still get to hang out and I am so glad that I get to see those heartfelt smiles that Brynn gives out!
Class is almost over... Blah
Monday, December 15, 2003
Bohemian rhapsody
Today I had a venting session and it was nice to say some of these things to someone cuz sometimes I feel like I am very alone. I feel that either everyone else is just too rapped up in their own problems, or they simply don't care about mine. Or I fear that they won't understand or idk they will criticize me. I thought senior year was supposed to be easy.
I just came up with a theory-- and I guess it wouldn't really hold true right now but I'll share it anyhow: what if some of the ppl in our grade are being so evil or weird because they are subconsciously either trying to push people away so it will be easier to leave, or they are trying to get reassurances that their friends really care. Idk... These are just the thoughts that are going through my mind.
I REALLY need to do hw. LATA
I just came up with a theory-- and I guess it wouldn't really hold true right now but I'll share it anyhow: what if some of the ppl in our grade are being so evil or weird because they are subconsciously either trying to push people away so it will be easier to leave, or they are trying to get reassurances that their friends really care. Idk... These are just the thoughts that are going through my mind.
I REALLY need to do hw. LATA
Sunday, December 14, 2003
Blowing in the wind.
Tonight I feel a mixture of pure happiness, and immense confusion. I hate it when that happens.
Friendships with people these days seem to be blowing in the wind; they come and go randomly. It makes me wonder who they are and where their priorities lay. And for some, an all-of-a-sudden spark makes it seem like I found my long lost friend. I just don't get it.
"The answer[s], my friend, [are] blowing in the wind. The answer[s] [are] blowing in the wind."
I think and hope that a departure from MN will give me some clarity on life and help me... with life...
Friendships with people these days seem to be blowing in the wind; they come and go randomly. It makes me wonder who they are and where their priorities lay. And for some, an all-of-a-sudden spark makes it seem like I found my long lost friend. I just don't get it.
"The answer[s], my friend, [are] blowing in the wind. The answer[s] [are] blowing in the wind."
I think and hope that a departure from MN will give me some clarity on life and help me... with life...
Thursday, December 11, 2003
I would like to take a moment to agree with Tedi about how much I really value Ian McC. Even if I haven't talked to him in a really long time, he still gives me a great big "hello" when I see him. And just yesterday, I was waiting in line behind him (at lunch) when he said hi to this kid who he'd made friends with at the retreat. This kid randomly asked Ian if he could buy him some chips, and Ian was like, yeah, no prob. Idk, I just thought it was a nice gesture that not a lot of people would really do for someone they don't know.
I am working on the crew for the Winter One Acts, and even though it's kinda weird not being apart of the cast, and I don't get to really talk to them at all, I am really enjoying seeing what goes on "behind the scenes", if you will. IDK, I'm just really enjoying myself, and I'm learning some new stuff and I just really think it's cool.
Al- In response to your blog: I know that I have been one to complain about the little things and make my world seem so much worse then it is. I guess in thinking about it, when something bad, no matter the degree of it, happens to you, it seems a hell of a lot worse to you then to someone else. Also, because whatever the drama may be, and it usually takes up about 90 % of your thoughts, the magnitude of the problem seems all that more big (for lack of a better word). Everyone takes for granted what they have, whether it be $$, love, shelter, friends, or underwear. Sometimes we just need a little remind just how lucky we really are. Thanks for reminding us.
Respect Retreat:
It was fun, even though I went in to it with a "schema". I was not really a fan of these freshman. I have listened to the rumors about them, and seen there cattiness, and have overall not gotten a very good impression of them-- for the most part. But today, seeing the weaker side of them proved to me that yes, they are human, and they have things in their life that I have no idea about. Overall, there are still people that I don't like and don't respect what they do, but I overall have a general respect for the class of 2009... I mean 2007.
I am working on the crew for the Winter One Acts, and even though it's kinda weird not being apart of the cast, and I don't get to really talk to them at all, I am really enjoying seeing what goes on "behind the scenes", if you will. IDK, I'm just really enjoying myself, and I'm learning some new stuff and I just really think it's cool.
Al- In response to your blog: I know that I have been one to complain about the little things and make my world seem so much worse then it is. I guess in thinking about it, when something bad, no matter the degree of it, happens to you, it seems a hell of a lot worse to you then to someone else. Also, because whatever the drama may be, and it usually takes up about 90 % of your thoughts, the magnitude of the problem seems all that more big (for lack of a better word). Everyone takes for granted what they have, whether it be $$, love, shelter, friends, or underwear. Sometimes we just need a little remind just how lucky we really are. Thanks for reminding us.
Respect Retreat:
It was fun, even though I went in to it with a "schema". I was not really a fan of these freshman. I have listened to the rumors about them, and seen there cattiness, and have overall not gotten a very good impression of them-- for the most part. But today, seeing the weaker side of them proved to me that yes, they are human, and they have things in their life that I have no idea about. Overall, there are still people that I don't like and don't respect what they do, but I overall have a general respect for the class of 2009... I mean 2007.
Saturday, December 06, 2003
My first trip to the big city proved to be more then just a trip-- and some of the things still affect me today. Just some background info: Last April, choir went on a trip to NY. It was so cool being there for the 1st time. We saw the Producers,and idk, its was fun. And even though things got shitty later, I got to be friends with Tim, which was an experience-- and we'll leave it at that. I also got to know Mandy, who ended up sleeping in our room. Aly had known her from Lax, but I was fairly unfamiliar with this crazy gal. She was so much fun. Well, lo and behold, we became pretty good friends this year. It meant so much to me that on Halloween day, I have told her that I didn't have any plans. She told me that she would call me and see if I wanted to join her. She looked up my # in the phone book and called. A lot of people said that they would call, but they didn't. She did. Just the act of her calling meant a lot. She even called me back later in the night (after she had gone trick-or-treating) to see if I wanted to hang out. The act of her calling really meant a lot. So basically, I just wanted to talk about my friend, Amanda. She's one cool gal. Oh and Mandy: Thanks? for the present ahead of time. Stealing is not good, though ;-).
On a different note, I was going through some of my old stuff that I have saved and I found this poem written by Garrett L. I thought it was pretty appropriate for a lot of people's current state of mind.
"As the days quickly end,
Soon after they begin.
I try to find the answers,
To the questions from within.
So now I stop to think,
To slow the daily race.
And find that at the speed in running,
I'll never keep the pace.
I think about my life,
And see all my mistakes.
But now is not the time to slow,
There's no time left to take.
And as the days pass,
I'm clinging to the past.
And I realize that inside my youth,
I grew up much too fast.
When what once was distant future,
Turns into what has been.
The days still quickly end,
Soon after they begin."
My present feeling right now is: ????????? (confusion)
All to all-- goodnight
On a different note, I was going through some of my old stuff that I have saved and I found this poem written by Garrett L. I thought it was pretty appropriate for a lot of people's current state of mind.
"As the days quickly end,
Soon after they begin.
I try to find the answers,
To the questions from within.
So now I stop to think,
To slow the daily race.
And find that at the speed in running,
I'll never keep the pace.
I think about my life,
And see all my mistakes.
But now is not the time to slow,
There's no time left to take.
And as the days pass,
I'm clinging to the past.
And I realize that inside my youth,
I grew up much too fast.
When what once was distant future,
Turns into what has been.
The days still quickly end,
Soon after they begin."
My present feeling right now is: ????????? (confusion)
All to all-- goodnight
Thursday, December 04, 2003
We had our winter choir concert tonight and despite all thoughts of how bad we were going to be, we were actually decent. I'm glad I'm done with some of those songs, though. And tomorrow = free day in choir... People come and visit and make it fun!
Congrats to everyone who's in the One Acts. I think you all will have tons of fun and I'm glad that I'll still get to be with you guys, even if it's from the other end of the theater.
I have a lot of hw to do... blah... will I do it. No, probably not. But I should attempt anyways.
Oh and before I go:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:
ERICA Q on Fri-- Dec 5,
MARIE S on Sat-- Dec 6, and
MAC P on Sun-- Dec 7. Welcome to "adulthood".
Congrats to everyone who's in the One Acts. I think you all will have tons of fun and I'm glad that I'll still get to be with you guys, even if it's from the other end of the theater.
I have a lot of hw to do... blah... will I do it. No, probably not. But I should attempt anyways.
Oh and before I go:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:
ERICA Q on Fri-- Dec 5,
MARIE S on Sat-- Dec 6, and
MAC P on Sun-- Dec 7. Welcome to "adulthood".
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
I'm tired.
I'm tired of holding on to a part of me that is over. I'm tired of my friends giving me shit for holding on-- you try letting go. I''m tired of drama. I'm tired of not being able to sleep on my stomach. I'm tired of slacking off. I'm tired of missing the play. I'm tired (already) of Jewish American Princesses. I'm tired of everyone fretting little things in their lives. I'm tired of swooning, and everyone else swooning over the opposite sex. I'm tired of being sour when I see couples kissing. I'm tired of being sour when I see couples, period. I'm tired of not being 100% happy for my friends who are happy.
Why do I feel like I'm going to cry? Why do I care what people think? Who really is going to make me happy? Them, or me? Why do things have to change? Can we just go back to -- idk -- 3rd grade? SO much less drama. I'm going to go to my cave for a while. Anyone who needs an escape from the world can join. There's plenty of room.
I'm tired of holding on to a part of me that is over. I'm tired of my friends giving me shit for holding on-- you try letting go. I''m tired of drama. I'm tired of not being able to sleep on my stomach. I'm tired of slacking off. I'm tired of missing the play. I'm tired (already) of Jewish American Princesses. I'm tired of everyone fretting little things in their lives. I'm tired of swooning, and everyone else swooning over the opposite sex. I'm tired of being sour when I see couples kissing. I'm tired of being sour when I see couples, period. I'm tired of not being 100% happy for my friends who are happy.
Why do I feel like I'm going to cry? Why do I care what people think? Who really is going to make me happy? Them, or me? Why do things have to change? Can we just go back to -- idk -- 3rd grade? SO much less drama. I'm going to go to my cave for a while. Anyone who needs an escape from the world can join. There's plenty of room.
Friday, November 28, 2003
Thursday, November 27, 2003
ALISON D:
"Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow
Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show
Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me
So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on
Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
Lean on me…
I love you, Al. You are always welcome here and if you ever just need to cry or scream, I've got open ears and 2 sholders to cry on.
"Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow
Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show
Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me
So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on
Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
Lean on me…
I love you, Al. You are always welcome here and if you ever just need to cry or scream, I've got open ears and 2 sholders to cry on.
Since it's Thanksgiving, I thought I'd reflect for a brief moment on what I'm thankful for. I am thankful for having good friends. I am thankful for being able to have experiences and memories that will be with me always. I am thankful for having been accepted to college and they offered me some $$ as well. I am thankful for all the material possessions that I have. I am thankful that I got to PARK. I am thankful for being thankful. (Did that make any sense?)
Smily-face: Where is Al, then? It definitely hasn't been 3 weeks. This doesn't sound too good. Please let me know what you know ASAP!
Carly: "Why do you like having a blog? What's good about them? And What do they do for you?"
I like having a blog for a few reasons. It makes me feel apart of a community. Not only people who have blogs, but people who read blogs. It's kind of a nice idea that people will be interested in my life enough to read something that I posted. Or perhaps they're just incredibly bored. Either way, it was nice that when I said I needed a hug, Ian came up to me with open arms. Still makes me smile. Umm, yeah I can't think of what else to say to answer your question.
Last night I did something that I haven't done in a really long time. I watched a movie with my mom. She made me hot chocolate, and she drank her tea, and we watched Michael together. Although I know that many of you (myself included) would much rather be out with friends then home with the 'rents, but on a snowy night, there's just something about being safe and warm in your own house, drinking hot chocolate with your mom.
Alison and Marie: Thanks for coming with me. It was a good time. And how can anyone pass up a Saved By The Bell marathon. If anyone ever has a craving to watch SBTB, just let me know. It's such a feeling to go back to my childhood and relive these moments.
"Who wants to buy the cow, when they can get the milk for free?" So, true... I wish it was that easy, though.
Happy Thanksgiving, everyone. Eat lots. What are you thankful for?
Smily-face: Where is Al, then? It definitely hasn't been 3 weeks. This doesn't sound too good. Please let me know what you know ASAP!
Carly: "Why do you like having a blog? What's good about them? And What do they do for you?"
I like having a blog for a few reasons. It makes me feel apart of a community. Not only people who have blogs, but people who read blogs. It's kind of a nice idea that people will be interested in my life enough to read something that I posted. Or perhaps they're just incredibly bored. Either way, it was nice that when I said I needed a hug, Ian came up to me with open arms. Still makes me smile. Umm, yeah I can't think of what else to say to answer your question.
Last night I did something that I haven't done in a really long time. I watched a movie with my mom. She made me hot chocolate, and she drank her tea, and we watched Michael together. Although I know that many of you (myself included) would much rather be out with friends then home with the 'rents, but on a snowy night, there's just something about being safe and warm in your own house, drinking hot chocolate with your mom.
Alison and Marie: Thanks for coming with me. It was a good time. And how can anyone pass up a Saved By The Bell marathon. If anyone ever has a craving to watch SBTB, just let me know. It's such a feeling to go back to my childhood and relive these moments.
"Who wants to buy the cow, when they can get the milk for free?" So, true... I wish it was that easy, though.
Happy Thanksgiving, everyone. Eat lots. What are you thankful for?
Monday, November 24, 2003
Thank you
Thank you to those who need not be named. You have impacted my life so much, that life without you seems horrible. What am I going to do without you? I love you. I mean that with the most sincerity in the world.
Tomorrow is Friday and I really need a break. I need to morn the end of my era. The end of the play, and the end of everything that comes with that. I just wish I could pause time.
I wish that... I wish that... You know what? I honestly don't know what I wish. My brain hurts. My heart aches.
I love you.
Tomorrow is Friday and I really need a break. I need to morn the end of my era. The end of the play, and the end of everything that comes with that. I just wish I could pause time.
I wish that... I wish that... You know what? I honestly don't know what I wish. My brain hurts. My heart aches.
I love you.
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
fuck freshman. i hate them. well, some of them. omg if i was ever as stupid as some of them are, i really should have been/should be shot.
it's amazing how my day can go from good to bad so fast. i am so upset right now.
i need another hug. and some angry music. or a punching bag. ahhhhh
but i'm going to "put on a happy face" like the song says.
it's amazing how my day can go from good to bad so fast. i am so upset right now.
i need another hug. and some angry music. or a punching bag. ahhhhh
but i'm going to "put on a happy face" like the song says.
Sunday, November 16, 2003
I'm so stressed out right now that I don't know what to do with myself. I've never felt this way. I want to cry and I have no idea why. I'm supposed to be having a good time. If I look at my life from an outside perspective, I know I have a good life. I am very fortunate that my parents are still married and that they both love me very much. I live in a nice neighborhood and go to a good school. I have my own car, and spending money. I have a cell phone and I have friends. But there feels like there is something missing. Idk... I can't put it in to words. I just wish someone would come up to me and explain life so that I could live it better. Or just come up and give me a hug.
1st weekend of the play is over and I have bittersweet feelings. I feel that it came together so well and despite that it is really long, I think it is a quality play. But at the same time, I really need a break from these people. I have suffered way too much drama. That's what I like about having 2 weekends of performances. Not only does all your hard work get shown off 6 times, but you get to ultimately celebrate with all these people all the hard work you've put in. (And Ian and Art: You too... grrrr...)... and: It's an intersting feeling when you are the 1st person out in "I've never". I kinda liked it.
If anyone reads this out in internet land: I need a hug. Thanks in advance.
1st weekend of the play is over and I have bittersweet feelings. I feel that it came together so well and despite that it is really long, I think it is a quality play. But at the same time, I really need a break from these people. I have suffered way too much drama. That's what I like about having 2 weekends of performances. Not only does all your hard work get shown off 6 times, but you get to ultimately celebrate with all these people all the hard work you've put in. (And Ian and Art: You too... grrrr...)... and: It's an intersting feeling when you are the 1st person out in "I've never". I kinda liked it.
If anyone reads this out in internet land: I need a hug. Thanks in advance.
Saturday, November 15, 2003
The play went so well and we're all so happy (the cast/crew). Thanks to Mac, Alison, carly and my rents, and my voice teacher and everyone else who came and saw it. it really means a lot!
stupid quote of the day: "but you know what nothing can compare to your smile. I love your smile so much"
Stupid people. blah. I need to go and shower and get ready for night. tata
stupid quote of the day: "but you know what nothing can compare to your smile. I love your smile so much"
Stupid people. blah. I need to go and shower and get ready for night. tata
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
Am I really that nuts
Thanks to Mac and Alison for having my back. It really means a lot!
I found a perfect song that no longer says what I am feeling, but did at one point: Blaque's ... ummm... crap... I don't' remember what it is called... but it's #14 on the CD that I have... Something about the last teardrop. Quality music.
Oh man, sleep is the only thing on my mind. I promise that a later blog will be more, well, interesting-- for lack of a better word.
Oh... and a ps... Does anyone think that my neck thing makes me not normal? Like to the point where I should see a shrink about it? "It's like someone having a fear of buttons... It's not normal.." -- "anonymous"... Please lemme know your response. I really don't think I'm that nuts...
I found a perfect song that no longer says what I am feeling, but did at one point: Blaque's ... ummm... crap... I don't' remember what it is called... but it's #14 on the CD that I have... Something about the last teardrop. Quality music.
Oh man, sleep is the only thing on my mind. I promise that a later blog will be more, well, interesting-- for lack of a better word.
Oh... and a ps... Does anyone think that my neck thing makes me not normal? Like to the point where I should see a shrink about it? "It's like someone having a fear of buttons... It's not normal.." -- "anonymous"... Please lemme know your response. I really don't think I'm that nuts...
Sunday, November 09, 2003
The end of an era
"Maybe the absence of comfortableness leads me to my passions and potential." --Carly Dachis
I have recently been taken out of the comfortableness and despite wanting that level of comfort back, I do think it will lead me to become a stronger individual and strive for more.
And Carly: thanks for putting my thoughts on to paper (blogger). I definitely think it's ridiculous to try to figure out who someone is and who they may be by answering some questions and writing an essay. We don't even know who we all-- how can they?
I think a lot of us seniors are finally growing up to a point where we want more then what SLP can offer us. Being 13/16 done with our mandatory school careers, this is a great time to ask: what do we want? But, being done with high school will be the end of an era. We will loose touch with some, and follow our passions to its full extent.
I'm definitely not making sense... Sorry
Have a good rest of the weekend...
I have recently been taken out of the comfortableness and despite wanting that level of comfort back, I do think it will lead me to become a stronger individual and strive for more.
And Carly: thanks for putting my thoughts on to paper (blogger). I definitely think it's ridiculous to try to figure out who someone is and who they may be by answering some questions and writing an essay. We don't even know who we all-- how can they?
I think a lot of us seniors are finally growing up to a point where we want more then what SLP can offer us. Being 13/16 done with our mandatory school careers, this is a great time to ask: what do we want? But, being done with high school will be the end of an era. We will loose touch with some, and follow our passions to its full extent.
I'm definitely not making sense... Sorry
Have a good rest of the weekend...
Saturday, November 08, 2003
This is my horoscope for today... ahhhh
"Everyone else is willing to compromise what they want in order to make you happy and you're still not satisfied. You're being offered something that most people would jump at and for some reason, you're not seeing how incredibly lucky you are. Admit that you're being unreasonable and consider the enormity of this opportunity. If you miss this deal of a lifetime, you won't get a second chance"
I hate my life
Blehh
"Everyone else is willing to compromise what they want in order to make you happy and you're still not satisfied. You're being offered something that most people would jump at and for some reason, you're not seeing how incredibly lucky you are. Admit that you're being unreasonable and consider the enormity of this opportunity. If you miss this deal of a lifetime, you won't get a second chance"
I hate my life
Blehh
"If you're alone and you need a friend. Someone to make you forget your problems.."
This was the song that was playing when I started enjoying sadies last night. Thanks, my friends, who helped me forget my problems and enjoy myself.
On Sadies: I HATE BPA AND DECA! I thought this dance was way too expensive! Meal included my ass... if you call those weenie dogs, chocolate, and cheese and crackers a meal. And you had to buy the pop for $2... at least the water was free. Enough on that.
Last night, for the first time in a while, I felt calm, and ok. I'm not sure if that feeling will remain part of me or if it was just momentary. All I can say is I hope it does cuz I'm completely worn out of feeling what I was feeling before.
I wish Alison didn't have to go to Chicago... I needed her this weekend
"Remember yesterday, but live for today."
This was the song that was playing when I started enjoying sadies last night. Thanks, my friends, who helped me forget my problems and enjoy myself.
On Sadies: I HATE BPA AND DECA! I thought this dance was way too expensive! Meal included my ass... if you call those weenie dogs, chocolate, and cheese and crackers a meal. And you had to buy the pop for $2... at least the water was free. Enough on that.
Last night, for the first time in a while, I felt calm, and ok. I'm not sure if that feeling will remain part of me or if it was just momentary. All I can say is I hope it does cuz I'm completely worn out of feeling what I was feeling before.
I wish Alison didn't have to go to Chicago... I needed her this weekend
"Remember yesterday, but live for today."
Monday, November 03, 2003
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
"Think complex for the world is nothing less. Listen intently for there is often more than what is said. Watch carefully for the world around you is a lesson waiting to be had. Know truth for the world is rarely what it seems. Speak originally for the world is full of mimics and live simply for the world is complicated enough."
My words of wisdom for the day, and to reinforce it for myself:
~Life will never give you more then you can handle.
~Take hold of all the moments in your life. They could slip away from you as fast as they began.
~Just because you don't want something to change, doesn't mean it isn't for the best.
~Take life for all it's worth
With that in mind, I would like to be a hypocrite. Life is not fair. Things that you want so badly are taken away from you and you can't do anything to stop it. What you want and what you can have are polar opposites. Why can't life just be easy? Why do we have to learn things from experience? Why can't we love and be loved and that be enough?
I'm frustrated with life and want to go sleep it off... Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.
ps. In response to my last blog... I don't want to go against anyone for anything they believe to be true, because in actuality, life is all about what you believe, not what others do. To Marge, I hope you really do love. Enjoy the feeling.
My words of wisdom for the day, and to reinforce it for myself:
~Life will never give you more then you can handle.
~Take hold of all the moments in your life. They could slip away from you as fast as they began.
~Just because you don't want something to change, doesn't mean it isn't for the best.
~Take life for all it's worth
With that in mind, I would like to be a hypocrite. Life is not fair. Things that you want so badly are taken away from you and you can't do anything to stop it. What you want and what you can have are polar opposites. Why can't life just be easy? Why do we have to learn things from experience? Why can't we love and be loved and that be enough?
I'm frustrated with life and want to go sleep it off... Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.
ps. In response to my last blog... I don't want to go against anyone for anything they believe to be true, because in actuality, life is all about what you believe, not what others do. To Marge, I hope you really do love. Enjoy the feeling.
Monday, October 27, 2003
Just wanted to say that it's been a pleasure reading Alison's blog. Thanks, Al, for making one. It has provided me with some needed idk, just.. I enjoy it.
On the subject of love, which has been commented on a lot recently: I know this person, who we'll call... Marge. Marge and her BF started saying I love you very early on in their relationship.. say 1 month. I really don't think a person knows that they're in love in that short of time. I'm happy for them that they could say it with meaning but my guess is that it has nothing to do with being in love with them, as Alison said, and maybe just loving them. Maybe that's what they meant by saying it; not that they're in love with them, but that they love them... hmmm. But... I don't really think that Marge really knows what love is and I think she still doesn't.... Either way you mean it, I think you should be careful with those words. When they get to a point where they are over used, or used in the wrong way, they lose their meaning, and then that's just is sh*t.
I used to think that I was in love with a kid from my past (you know who I'm talking about if you know me). Looking back, I was simply infatuated with him more then anything. It was one of those things that I wanted and couldn't have and was I young and held on to my crush for too long. I'm glad that I've out grown that. It took up too much of my thoughts and hopes.
Well, my brain has stopped working... Night
On the subject of love, which has been commented on a lot recently: I know this person, who we'll call... Marge. Marge and her BF started saying I love you very early on in their relationship.. say 1 month. I really don't think a person knows that they're in love in that short of time. I'm happy for them that they could say it with meaning but my guess is that it has nothing to do with being in love with them, as Alison said, and maybe just loving them. Maybe that's what they meant by saying it; not that they're in love with them, but that they love them... hmmm. But... I don't really think that Marge really knows what love is and I think she still doesn't.... Either way you mean it, I think you should be careful with those words. When they get to a point where they are over used, or used in the wrong way, they lose their meaning, and then that's just is sh*t.
I used to think that I was in love with a kid from my past (you know who I'm talking about if you know me). Looking back, I was simply infatuated with him more then anything. It was one of those things that I wanted and couldn't have and was I young and held on to my crush for too long. I'm glad that I've out grown that. It took up too much of my thoughts and hopes.
Well, my brain has stopped working... Night
Sunday, October 19, 2003
Oh... Sunday afternoons...
As I sat here, this Sunday afternoon, reading other people's inner thoughts (no, not really ... just their blogs..) I find myself in deep in thought. (as much as I can on sun. afternoon) I realize that there a so many people that I check in with just through their blog, but it's come to the point that that is the only connection (?) with them anymore. I rarely talk to Ian anymore. Carly is merely a hello every now and again. There's others as well... IDK, maybe it's just that I'm not trying as hard. Maybe no one else is either. I just want senior year to be full of good memories, not ones of regret and lost friendships.
As I sat here, this Sunday afternoon, reading other people's inner thoughts (no, not really ... just their blogs..) I find myself in deep in thought. (as much as I can on sun. afternoon) I realize that there a so many people that I check in with just through their blog, but it's come to the point that that is the only connection (?) with them anymore. I rarely talk to Ian anymore. Carly is merely a hello every now and again. There's others as well... IDK, maybe it's just that I'm not trying as hard. Maybe no one else is either. I just want senior year to be full of good memories, not ones of regret and lost friendships.
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
OK, OK, I'm finally blogging. Here's the latest drama that's been going on in the life of Libby.
Monday, after play practice, the director of the play came up to me, and abruptly told me that they were taking my part away from me and give it to someone else. Everything she told me is just a blur now because it truly felt like I was in a movie and that it wasn't real. Needless to say, I was pretty upset. My reasoning was that I really didn't care what part they had given me in the beginning, yet the fact that they took my part away from me without warning or help. I went in today to talk to the music director about it (she was part of the "decision"). I told her what I had been feeling and how upset I had been (and I was crying while talking to her so I think she got it) and how I felt like they hadn't given me a chance... yada yada. Well, then the director came down so we could all talk and I reiterated what I had already said. They said they would talk about it. After school today, I was told that I had been correct and that they had gone to an extreme decision. Now: I am on "probation" and they will check back with me in a week to see how I'm doing. I know I can do this part and I'm going to make them regret that they doubted me. F*** them!
I gatta go sleep. I'm tired.
Monday, after play practice, the director of the play came up to me, and abruptly told me that they were taking my part away from me and give it to someone else. Everything she told me is just a blur now because it truly felt like I was in a movie and that it wasn't real. Needless to say, I was pretty upset. My reasoning was that I really didn't care what part they had given me in the beginning, yet the fact that they took my part away from me without warning or help. I went in today to talk to the music director about it (she was part of the "decision"). I told her what I had been feeling and how upset I had been (and I was crying while talking to her so I think she got it) and how I felt like they hadn't given me a chance... yada yada. Well, then the director came down so we could all talk and I reiterated what I had already said. They said they would talk about it. After school today, I was told that I had been correct and that they had gone to an extreme decision. Now: I am on "probation" and they will check back with me in a week to see how I'm doing. I know I can do this part and I'm going to make them regret that they doubted me. F*** them!
I gatta go sleep. I'm tired.
Monday, September 15, 2003
Today was one of those days..
Today was one of those days when I just didn't want to get out of bed.
Today was one of those days when seeing someone unexpectedly brightened my day.
Today was one of those days that went on forever.
Today was one of those days that made me wonder why I try so hard.
Today was one of those days when I really realized the value of a heartfelt "Thank you."
Today was one of those days when someone getting irritated, irritated me.
Today was one of those days that made me sad for no reason.
Today was one of those days that reminded me why I hate Mondays.
Today was one of those days when I remembered that I love being loved.
Today was just one of those days...
Today was one of those days when I just didn't want to get out of bed.
Today was one of those days when seeing someone unexpectedly brightened my day.
Today was one of those days that went on forever.
Today was one of those days that made me wonder why I try so hard.
Today was one of those days when I really realized the value of a heartfelt "Thank you."
Today was one of those days when someone getting irritated, irritated me.
Today was one of those days that made me sad for no reason.
Today was one of those days that reminded me why I hate Mondays.
Today was one of those days when I remembered that I love being loved.
Today was just one of those days...
Wednesday, September 03, 2003
OK, so the with the first real day of school completed, I find myself back at the computer, procrastinating about one thing or another. And what a better way to pass the time then blogging.
Other then some people that I just cannot stand in choir, my classes are pretty tolerable. Uch... I can't/don't want to believe that summer is actually over, though. Where did it go? What did I do? AHHH. It'll be OK. I need to enjoy myself, right? I mean, come on here.... I'm a SENIOR! Hell yeah! I'm just going to take it a few days at a time ... and look forward to the football and hockey games, the dances, the acceptance letters to schools (lets not talk about the actual applying and possibility of rejection), and overall enjoyment of being on top.
On another note: I've begun to actually realize how hard the transition is from summer to school is only as hard as you make it. Analyzing the "could bes" and possible situations that might occur in any given time in any situation is enough to drive someone mad-- I should know. My message to you all is just take it as it comes. If you assume that the worst will happen, there's a much greater chance it will. Enjoy what you've got. Take part in everything you can. Hug for just a moment longer. Go up on stage and sing with a goofy wig on. Try out for that play that you want to do. Try extra hard in your game. Call the person you've been dying to talk to. If you don't do it now, in years to come, you'll look back and all you can say is why didn't I do that? Why didn't I enjoy myself the best I could? Here's a quote for you to put to good use:
"I'd rather be sorry for something I did, then for something that I didn't do"
Well, all, I best be off to bed since I'm trying to go to bed at a reasonable hour.
Other then some people that I just cannot stand in choir, my classes are pretty tolerable. Uch... I can't/don't want to believe that summer is actually over, though. Where did it go? What did I do? AHHH. It'll be OK. I need to enjoy myself, right? I mean, come on here.... I'm a SENIOR! Hell yeah! I'm just going to take it a few days at a time ... and look forward to the football and hockey games, the dances, the acceptance letters to schools (lets not talk about the actual applying and possibility of rejection), and overall enjoyment of being on top.
On another note: I've begun to actually realize how hard the transition is from summer to school is only as hard as you make it. Analyzing the "could bes" and possible situations that might occur in any given time in any situation is enough to drive someone mad-- I should know. My message to you all is just take it as it comes. If you assume that the worst will happen, there's a much greater chance it will. Enjoy what you've got. Take part in everything you can. Hug for just a moment longer. Go up on stage and sing with a goofy wig on. Try out for that play that you want to do. Try extra hard in your game. Call the person you've been dying to talk to. If you don't do it now, in years to come, you'll look back and all you can say is why didn't I do that? Why didn't I enjoy myself the best I could? Here's a quote for you to put to good use:
"I'd rather be sorry for something I did, then for something that I didn't do"
Well, all, I best be off to bed since I'm trying to go to bed at a reasonable hour.
Sunday, July 20, 2003
I have found that a good chunk of my thoughts have currently been taken up by college-- the next step of life that alway felt so far away. I don't want to grow up. I don't feel ready. AHHHHH.
Ok, Ok. Last night I was an extra in Nick Hedberg's movie. That was kinda cool. Of course, Alison and myself were the highschool girls at the frat party. We were the only ones who didn't get to hold a plastic glass of apple juice. Oh well, it was fun.
Umm, I'm feeling at a loss for words, so I'm quitting for now.
Ok, Ok. Last night I was an extra in Nick Hedberg's movie. That was kinda cool. Of course, Alison and myself were the highschool girls at the frat party. We were the only ones who didn't get to hold a plastic glass of apple juice. Oh well, it was fun.
Umm, I'm feeling at a loss for words, so I'm quitting for now.
Tuesday, July 08, 2003
So I've realized that since I don't have an excuse to come and Blog (i.e. trying to refrain from doing homework) I have simply not come online very much to waist time therefore resulting in no blogs.
Life in Libby-Land has been ... fairly uneventful. My trip to NY with Jen and her family proved that both Jen and I have grown up tremendously, even if we weren't aware of this. We were able to be together non stop for 8 days without so much as an argument. I feel that that is a sign of maturity. New York-- "I wanna wake up in the city that doesn't sleep. To find I'm king of the hill; top of the heap. New York, New York" was a really fun place to vacation, but not a place that I would like to live. I went shopping, went to see 2 Broadway plays, The Lion King, and Thoroughly Modern Millie (I highly recommend it -- It's coming to Mpls sometime next year), I went to a Yankee/Mets baseball game at Yankee Stadium, I went to SOHO and Cannel Street (they have knockoff purses!!), went to see the Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island, had dinner with Jen's mom's aunt who's a true New Yorker, "I'd like some wata", and some other random things all while being in 100 degree weather. And the nutty New Yorkers are strutting around in long pants, sweaters, and a multitude of other accessories usually found in early November, not the middle of June. Needless to say, I almost passed out just from looking at them.
The 5th installment of Harry Potter has been out and read by many, I am about 6/8 done. I am not so happy with it, though. Nothing seems to be going right. There is a character that makes me so angry that I find myself being bitter towards something or someone outside the realm of H. P. I then realize that I have once again been sucked in to another world that shouldn't affect this one. Alison said it gets better towards the end, which I'm getting too... I just hope I'm not too disappointed. Although, even though I'm not done with it yet, I know that it is not one of my favorites.
ACTs have come back, and while I was really relieved at my score, I have found that once it sank in, I'm not as proud as I was initially. I just hope that since I truly did try my hardest and prepared for it, that it is enough to ensure an admittance to one of the colleges that I want to go to ... but enough thinking of that right now...
I best be off -- seeing as though it is 2:18 am and I work tomorrow. I love how even though I have somewhere to be tomorrow in the AM... I simply do not care what time I go to bed ... unlike school. Well, I don't care too much about that either, but a little more then now. OK, I'm just babbling so I need sleep. Nighty Night.
Life in Libby-Land has been ... fairly uneventful. My trip to NY with Jen and her family proved that both Jen and I have grown up tremendously, even if we weren't aware of this. We were able to be together non stop for 8 days without so much as an argument. I feel that that is a sign of maturity. New York-- "I wanna wake up in the city that doesn't sleep. To find I'm king of the hill; top of the heap. New York, New York" was a really fun place to vacation, but not a place that I would like to live. I went shopping, went to see 2 Broadway plays, The Lion King, and Thoroughly Modern Millie (I highly recommend it -- It's coming to Mpls sometime next year), I went to a Yankee/Mets baseball game at Yankee Stadium, I went to SOHO and Cannel Street (they have knockoff purses!!), went to see the Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island, had dinner with Jen's mom's aunt who's a true New Yorker, "I'd like some wata", and some other random things all while being in 100 degree weather. And the nutty New Yorkers are strutting around in long pants, sweaters, and a multitude of other accessories usually found in early November, not the middle of June. Needless to say, I almost passed out just from looking at them.
The 5th installment of Harry Potter has been out and read by many, I am about 6/8 done. I am not so happy with it, though. Nothing seems to be going right. There is a character that makes me so angry that I find myself being bitter towards something or someone outside the realm of H. P. I then realize that I have once again been sucked in to another world that shouldn't affect this one. Alison said it gets better towards the end, which I'm getting too... I just hope I'm not too disappointed. Although, even though I'm not done with it yet, I know that it is not one of my favorites.
ACTs have come back, and while I was really relieved at my score, I have found that once it sank in, I'm not as proud as I was initially. I just hope that since I truly did try my hardest and prepared for it, that it is enough to ensure an admittance to one of the colleges that I want to go to ... but enough thinking of that right now...
I best be off -- seeing as though it is 2:18 am and I work tomorrow. I love how even though I have somewhere to be tomorrow in the AM... I simply do not care what time I go to bed ... unlike school. Well, I don't care too much about that either, but a little more then now. OK, I'm just babbling so I need sleep. Nighty Night.
Tuesday, June 17, 2003
School is finally over! I am a SENIOR. HELLO!!! Wasn't it just yesterday that I was a freshman? Where did the time go? Graduation parties: Just an excuse to get a free meal. Congrats to all who graduated, though!
Work has begun ... they call it work for a reason. Well, actually, it is fun. And we don't work a whole lot. But when it's really hot, and there are crabby people, now that's work! Come and visit me sometime, though. (I'm over at the Rec Center if you didn't know)
Took the ACTs this past Saturday. *huge sigh* At least I got them over with. I really hope I did well on them. I hate that 3 hours of your life can basically decide the next 4 years. In the event that I don't do as well as I'd hoped, there's always the October ones... but that is too far in the future.
Goodbye to everyone who is leaving the great U. S. of A. (or going somewhere other then MN) You all are going to have an amazing time whether you are in France, Israel, Poland, or anywhere else you happen to be going. As for me-I'm leaving for New York on Monday. I'm really excited, seeing as this will be my second time there. This time will be so much better -- no nazis there to ruin my time! Broadway: Here I come!
Adieu, mes amies. (Farewell my friends)
Work has begun ... they call it work for a reason. Well, actually, it is fun. And we don't work a whole lot. But when it's really hot, and there are crabby people, now that's work! Come and visit me sometime, though. (I'm over at the Rec Center if you didn't know)
Took the ACTs this past Saturday. *huge sigh* At least I got them over with. I really hope I did well on them. I hate that 3 hours of your life can basically decide the next 4 years. In the event that I don't do as well as I'd hoped, there's always the October ones... but that is too far in the future.
Goodbye to everyone who is leaving the great U. S. of A. (or going somewhere other then MN) You all are going to have an amazing time whether you are in France, Israel, Poland, or anywhere else you happen to be going. As for me-I'm leaving for New York on Monday. I'm really excited, seeing as this will be my second time there. This time will be so much better -- no nazis there to ruin my time! Broadway: Here I come!
Adieu, mes amies. (Farewell my friends)
Sunday, June 08, 2003
Recently, a song that I sang in 4th grade came back to me:
All things end, so my friend. We, too, shall be parting.
Moments shared, slowly drift, into memories.
But with time, on our side; one day we'll be together.
Until then, we must say good-bye.
Thank you for the happiness we've shared along the way.
May it be a constant friend each hour everyday.
May the songs we sang together live within our minds.
Sweet memories of joy and love untouched by age or time.
All things end, so my friend. We, too, shall be parting.
Moments shared, slowly drift, into memories.
But with time, on our side; one day we'll be together.
Until then, we must say good-bye.
All things end, so my friend. We, too, shall be parting.
Moments shared, slowly drift, into memories.
But with time, on our side; one day we'll be together.
Until then, we must say good-bye.
Thank you for the happiness we've shared along the way.
May it be a constant friend each hour everyday.
May the songs we sang together live within our minds.
Sweet memories of joy and love untouched by age or time.
All things end, so my friend. We, too, shall be parting.
Moments shared, slowly drift, into memories.
But with time, on our side; one day we'll be together.
Until then, we must say good-bye.
Saturday, June 07, 2003
I haven't written a poem in a long time for a few reasons... I haven't had enough inspiration, and I haven't had the time. Yes, sometimes I like to rhyme my poems, I think it makes it fun ... even if it makes it cheesy. Well, here's the product of my thoughts:
To whom it may concern:
Feelings are not something to be tampered with
Why start something you aren't going to finish?
Don't take for granted the opportunities you've been given
Your life was meant for livin'
I really hope that through me you learn
I'm writing this to whom it may concern
On a different note, tonight I had an awaking. I was at Goodwill and the guy that worked there told me that I was rich. I politely declined, saying that I wasn't. Then he proceeded to ask me if I had a job. If I drove. If I was healthily. If I was in school. To which I replied yes to each. He then told me that because of all those things, I was rich. Once in a while, everyone needs a dose of reality to put things back into perspective.
To whom it may concern:
Feelings are not something to be tampered with
Why start something you aren't going to finish?
Don't take for granted the opportunities you've been given
Your life was meant for livin'
I really hope that through me you learn
I'm writing this to whom it may concern
On a different note, tonight I had an awaking. I was at Goodwill and the guy that worked there told me that I was rich. I politely declined, saying that I wasn't. Then he proceeded to ask me if I had a job. If I drove. If I was healthily. If I was in school. To which I replied yes to each. He then told me that because of all those things, I was rich. Once in a while, everyone needs a dose of reality to put things back into perspective.
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
Just found this out, since no one cares to tell me things anymore: Megan, Mac, and Aly are lax captains for next year! CONGRATS to all. Mac, I know how much you've wanted this and so I'm incredibly proud of you.
6 more days!!! That's it! (42 hrs) YESSSSSSSSSSSS
My first day of work for the summer is on Sat. I am really glad cuz I'm in a deficit for money! I can't wait to try our new food. How good does a microwavable cheeseburger sounds? I mean, c'mon!
Gatta go do..something
6 more days!!! That's it! (42 hrs) YESSSSSSSSSSSS
My first day of work for the summer is on Sat. I am really glad cuz I'm in a deficit for money! I can't wait to try our new food. How good does a microwavable cheeseburger sounds? I mean, c'mon!
Gatta go do..something
Sunday, June 01, 2003
So, the play is over and I have to confess that although I met some really cool people, I'm not particularly sad that it is over, like I am with, say, the Temple play. Good job, to all, though: we really pulled it off! Go us! I will miss seeing you all everyday.
I would like to take a minuet to talk about yearbooks. I was talking to Alex Conery on Friday when the yearbook signing frenzy started and I asked him to sign my yearbook. He proceeded to tell that he doesn't like signing them and wont let anyone sign his. I asked him why. He said because he thinks it is silly to try to sum up a whole year, or a whole friendship on the pages of a yearbook. I think that makes a lot of sense. I mean, how many of you have sat there thinking of what you were going to write to so-and-so ... or ended up writing relatively the same thing in each person's? Doesn't that tell you sometime? True, I enjoy getting my yearbook as a remembrance of the year past, but reading 20 messages of "Libby, we have to hang out, c/m." "Have a good summer." "Math was fun." gets a little old. Although I do enjoy those few messages where people confess there hidden love for me, hint hint. So, in the event that I don't get to signing your yearbook this year: _____, I had so much fun with you in ______! Have a terrific summer and call me when you get a chance! ~Heart~ Libby.
I HATE Hopkins and Armstrong ... they only have 3 half days left of school... AHHH not fair! I WANT OUT! OK... I'm OK. 8 days. 56 hrs (yes, I calculated it)
Well, ta ta for now...
I would like to take a minuet to talk about yearbooks. I was talking to Alex Conery on Friday when the yearbook signing frenzy started and I asked him to sign my yearbook. He proceeded to tell that he doesn't like signing them and wont let anyone sign his. I asked him why. He said because he thinks it is silly to try to sum up a whole year, or a whole friendship on the pages of a yearbook. I think that makes a lot of sense. I mean, how many of you have sat there thinking of what you were going to write to so-and-so ... or ended up writing relatively the same thing in each person's? Doesn't that tell you sometime? True, I enjoy getting my yearbook as a remembrance of the year past, but reading 20 messages of "Libby, we have to hang out, c/m." "Have a good summer." "Math was fun." gets a little old. Although I do enjoy those few messages where people confess there hidden love for me, hint hint. So, in the event that I don't get to signing your yearbook this year: _____, I had so much fun with you in ______! Have a terrific summer and call me when you get a chance! ~Heart~ Libby.
I HATE Hopkins and Armstrong ... they only have 3 half days left of school... AHHH not fair! I WANT OUT! OK... I'm OK. 8 days. 56 hrs (yes, I calculated it)
Well, ta ta for now...
Tuesday, May 27, 2003
Monday, May 26, 2003
So, I take back all of the negative things I thought and said about the play. It really came together. It's not worthy of an Oscar, but hey--it's worth comin to. SO COME AND SEE IT!
Guess who I saw today? Josh Hartnett. That's right... I really saw him. There I was, driving around Lake of the Isles with Jen, when all of a sudden she goes: hey I think that is Josh Hartnett. So I drive around the block, and he was walking his dog up the stairs... and so we drove around again and he was faicing the street, and it was definitly him! It was cool that we saw him. And yes, I might have stalked him, but so did a ton of other people at the AIDS walk last year... it just happenes. Ah, good times.
Sleep? No, cuz that means it'll be school and that means I have to pretentd to think. Maybe I'll go clean..
Guess who I saw today? Josh Hartnett. That's right... I really saw him. There I was, driving around Lake of the Isles with Jen, when all of a sudden she goes: hey I think that is Josh Hartnett. So I drive around the block, and he was walking his dog up the stairs... and so we drove around again and he was faicing the street, and it was definitly him! It was cool that we saw him. And yes, I might have stalked him, but so did a ton of other people at the AIDS walk last year... it just happenes. Ah, good times.
Sleep? No, cuz that means it'll be school and that means I have to pretentd to think. Maybe I'll go clean..
Thursday, May 22, 2003
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
One more thing: I agree with ian in that it is amazingly rewarding to be part of a musical... it is one of those times when you really find out who you are and how you handle yourself under stress and pressure. Break a leg to the cast and crew... we all really deserve a good show... and I think we can do it. Let's have an amazing miracle and have a GREAT show!!
Today was one of those days when I wished with all of my heart that I could crawl in to my bed, or go to my cave--for those of you who know about it -- and disappear for a good long while. As school is winding down, I can't help but think that I want to kill just about every teacher I know... I am frustrated, tired, and just sick of the monotony of this crap. My brain shut off about 2 weeks ago and isn't ready to come back on until September. Today was one of those nights when everything got to me and blah--it came out. This g-ddamn play is ruining my life. I am so tired at night that I am not doing my stupid busy work from the dumb teachers and im just so tired in general that I just want to throw up. I give mad props to Ian and others in the play who always have a positive attitude about things ... thanks guys.
I want to send a big shout out to the lax team: Great season! I'm sorry you lost ... but what a great run! You all should be very proud.
14 days, guys... 14 days.
I want to send a big shout out to the lax team: Great season! I'm sorry you lost ... but what a great run! You all should be very proud.
14 days, guys... 14 days.
Wednesday, May 14, 2003
As much as this may seem pathetic and childish, I feel like part of my childhood ended tonight. For the past 6 years of my life I have grown up right along with Dawson, Joey, Pacey, Jen, Jack, Andie, Audry, Grams, ect. I can't begin to express my emotions right now, but in the words of Carly, " We have live vicariously through these characters. They parallel our lives so much." I have squirmed in my seat, wondering if Joey will choose Pacey, or Dawson. I have sat in awe as they put all of my feelings and thoughts about teenage angst into just an hour a week. I am one of the remaining true fans left -- been with it from episode one; although tonight, it was amazing to be part of a community sharing the end of an era. A friend of mine who gave up the show a few years a go came back to watch it end (with slight persuasion from Carly and myself) as well as some others who returned to the creek one last time. In response to the show: there are two things that were slightly upsetting to me. One: in a preview for tonight's final episode, they show Joey looking at a wedding ring.. yeah that didn't happen. And two, Andie did not come back like I thought she would. But, on a good note ... they ended it like I wanted.
On a different subject. Prom is in two days. I'm trying to keep my excitement in check, because I don't want to have too high of expectations. I'm trying to think of it like any other dance.
I think, if my calculations are correct, we are in the teens for how many days of hell we have left. I can make, "I think I can, I think I can"!
Well, thanks for stickin with this--
Lib
On a different subject. Prom is in two days. I'm trying to keep my excitement in check, because I don't want to have too high of expectations. I'm trying to think of it like any other dance.
I think, if my calculations are correct, we are in the teens for how many days of hell we have left. I can make, "I think I can, I think I can"!
Well, thanks for stickin with this--
Lib
Sunday, May 11, 2003
My two year curse has been broken! If you don't know what I'm talking about... sorry... but to those who do: YEAHHH!!!!!! I'm so happy right now.
So last night was the Thespian banquet and I didn't attend because, IDK, I knew that I would probably have fun ... but I also felt like I needed a break from the theater posse. Don't get me wrong: I'm having so much fun with all these kids. IDK... just me being dumb. I heard a few snip-its about it, though. Ian's blog informed me how fun the wedding party down the hall was, and Lorna and Becky said they had fun too.. and get this: someone gave me their senior will (sorry if I misspelled that) and I wasn't there... It's times like this where I feel bad for not going. I know it would've been fun ... but my night was fun nonetheless! I hung out with Tim. Yep, fun times.
Mac, your blog message was one of those things that sums up a lot of things I want to say, but don't necessarily know how. Thanks for that! check it out if you haven't seen it: http://www.lacrosseismylife.blogspot.com/
OK, for some reason, this year I've notice that there have been so many couples forming now ... what is it? Spring? I don't get it... I mean, I'm not knocking it, it's just quite peculiar to me. If you have any insight on this, e-mail me: LiLo24@aol.com or Meuus9@yahoo.com
I'm outty... see: there's this thing called homework that I like to pretend to to, and the extent of that is reading sparknotes... that's about all I do these days... why can't school just be over so I don't have to deal with this pretending? I wish it was like in Harry Potter: where "as a special treat all final exams have been canceled"! Wouldn't that be great? Eh, I can only dream....
So last night was the Thespian banquet and I didn't attend because, IDK, I knew that I would probably have fun ... but I also felt like I needed a break from the theater posse. Don't get me wrong: I'm having so much fun with all these kids. IDK... just me being dumb. I heard a few snip-its about it, though. Ian's blog informed me how fun the wedding party down the hall was, and Lorna and Becky said they had fun too.. and get this: someone gave me their senior will (sorry if I misspelled that) and I wasn't there... It's times like this where I feel bad for not going. I know it would've been fun ... but my night was fun nonetheless! I hung out with Tim. Yep, fun times.
Mac, your blog message was one of those things that sums up a lot of things I want to say, but don't necessarily know how. Thanks for that! check it out if you haven't seen it: http://www.lacrosseismylife.blogspot.com/
OK, for some reason, this year I've notice that there have been so many couples forming now ... what is it? Spring? I don't get it... I mean, I'm not knocking it, it's just quite peculiar to me. If you have any insight on this, e-mail me: LiLo24@aol.com or Meuus9@yahoo.com
I'm outty... see: there's this thing called homework that I like to pretend to to, and the extent of that is reading sparknotes... that's about all I do these days... why can't school just be over so I don't have to deal with this pretending? I wish it was like in Harry Potter: where "as a special treat all final exams have been canceled"! Wouldn't that be great? Eh, I can only dream....
Thursday, May 08, 2003
OK, this is such a great idea. One of the things that I really like about it is the fact that you can feel like you know someone better, like with Ian. Reading Ian's blog, I feel like I got an opportunity to know him better, without even talking to him.
I just read a poem that was Garrett's (sp) profile, and it was really good. I like seeing something of someone's that I didn't know was part of them: like finding out a secret talent about someone.
Prom: I am getting really excited! I'm really excited that I'm going with Tim.
Here's my philosophy: when you least expect it, it will happen. I totally didn't think that I would make a new friend while I was in New York with choir-and then what happens? Tim stays in our room (shhh) and I had a crush. I'm really happy right now, and I owe a lot of that to Tim. Now, don't think I'm one of those gals who needs a boy to make her happy; I'm not. It's just nice to have something to look forward to when I get to school (to everyone else at school: I enjoy seeing you too!). Who knows what will happen in the future, but this is just part of the journey.
I'm starting to think about life after high school.. But wait ... didn't we just start high school? We're going to be seniors in a month from sunday? What? Where did the time go? I'm really ready for the year to be over, but not this part of my life. Next year is going to be so cool, yet so weird. I've got to know some of the seniors and it's going to be so weird without them there. The football and hockey games along with lunch, and so many other aspects of high school just wont be the same! I don't wanna think about that yet... one day at a time.
Ok, I'm done. 2nd period of the Wild game is on...
I just read a poem that was Garrett's (sp) profile, and it was really good. I like seeing something of someone's that I didn't know was part of them: like finding out a secret talent about someone.
Prom: I am getting really excited! I'm really excited that I'm going with Tim.
Here's my philosophy: when you least expect it, it will happen. I totally didn't think that I would make a new friend while I was in New York with choir-and then what happens? Tim stays in our room (shhh) and I had a crush. I'm really happy right now, and I owe a lot of that to Tim. Now, don't think I'm one of those gals who needs a boy to make her happy; I'm not. It's just nice to have something to look forward to when I get to school (to everyone else at school: I enjoy seeing you too!). Who knows what will happen in the future, but this is just part of the journey.
I'm starting to think about life after high school.. But wait ... didn't we just start high school? We're going to be seniors in a month from sunday? What? Where did the time go? I'm really ready for the year to be over, but not this part of my life. Next year is going to be so cool, yet so weird. I've got to know some of the seniors and it's going to be so weird without them there. The football and hockey games along with lunch, and so many other aspects of high school just wont be the same! I don't wanna think about that yet... one day at a time.
Ok, I'm done. 2nd period of the Wild game is on...
