Life has been gloomy- literally and figuratively. It's been raining here nonstop for the past three or more days, and it's been cold and wet and blech. People around me that I've gotten close with aren't happy, and that in turn makes me unhappy. Couples who have defied the odds (sometimes) have broken up. Rush for sorority starts Sat: 11am -9pm Sat and 11am- 8pm Sun. My birthday is Sunday. I don't want to spend my birthday with a bunch of overly happy sorority girls. I've been questioning why I'm actually rushing; and it's just for the experience. Then I can never say "what-if". I think a big part of the reason I'm even more stressed about this weekend is because Jen is coming to visit. I want to show her a good time. I want to see her. This is so frustrating. The good thing, though, is her visit has been motivating me to be very efficient this week. If only I was this motivated all the time. I would have so much less stress.

On a different note I have found some great friends here. They are what I look forward to during the day, and are my accomplices in my procrastination at night. They are the people who I take care of when they are sick, and who hold me when I need to cry. They are my new family.

My stomach is about to eat itself...